I don't know why I always tell them I feel okay when I don't actually do.
In fact, it sucks.
Its a saturday and I'm indoors.
I can't stop the tears, I'm just down for no reason.
I'm missing home alot.
How do I make myself happier?
I AM NOT, AND I DON'T WANT TO PRETEND EVERYTHING IS OKAY ANYMORE.
I'm just so depressed.
I don't want to be BUSY to distract myself from what I am feeling.
I just want to go to bed and sleep it all away.
I hate it here.
I don't want to smile and try to fit in anymore.
I want to go home to my family.
To my friends.
To him.
That's where I belong.
I hate to be alone.
Hate to feel lonely.
I'm going to sleep it away now.
Goodbye.
My 15th day in PJ, Selangor.
Posted on 11th of April, 2009.
