Thursday, January 24, 2008

what a lousy lousy day.

爱你当着呼吸
我忘了自己
也要日夜想着你
风吹日晒雨淋没关系
只要你
在我身边别离去

爱上你我失去了自己
所有逻辑乱了次序
我要做你心中唯一
爱上你最后却判出局
原来我只是代替品
爱上你我最后输给了命运

我好爱你
我好想你

tension's i lose myself by loving you. nice huh. very into sentimental songs these days. creeeepy. im dying in office. of boredom and pressure. actually i dont really understand why some gys just suck to the max. namely, him. !@#$%^&* if you dont happen to know yet, lemme tell you. he sucks. yea. HE, JR, SUCKS! why does he suck? cuz he just sucks.

feeling quite shitty now actually. my pop mie finished, im wondering where to go for lunch cuz i cant drive, this sucks! LOL so anyways.. i was saying. lately i just cant seem to calm down. maybe its just me being too like.. paranoid? but hell.. ite eating me up inside. the emptiness the loneliness. he's never there when i needed him, i feel like giving him up.. but know what? suckily.. i just cant. sad huh.

even when he's beside me.. i still feel lonely. as if he's not even there. actually, i just dontknow ! sh*t this is just so ******. im having a bad day i needed to go !@#$%^&* so please understand that if im crapping alot in this blog. i feel so much like crying right now. i think im bloody emotional now cuz my MS is coming to visit me soon. anyways, whats up lately? follow me up, peeps! im so outta place i feel like an alien in the crowd, like from HUTAN. ==" HAHAHAH.

i havent beenhaving a proper date ever since this month started. everything always have to be rushy. but actually i do love my job THAT lot. :) some say they admire my good tips, hey. wanna listen to how i sound now? broken vocal, tired legs, not even enough time to rest. plus.. my schedule has been updated. to... start work from this 26th to next month till new year's over. creepy huh. :(

anyway this blog will be with no pictures. no time to take pictures lately. only stories to share.
so just the day before yesterday i got myself a piercing on the ear. again. yea. on the right ear, the place i had pierce two times before. it used to ache during my last two piercins, but now it aches no more. LALALALA. hahahah. SYOK ehhhhh

and then yesterday.. ny dad's workers fought. i guess only ahwen has seen them before. They are not YINI ren. instead, they are vietnamese. or you can say.. they are actually chinese people who doesnt speak chinese but speaks the native language. two out of the four looks quite good. there were four vietnamese, two younger, two older, guess their age. the youngest is 22, 23, 29, 34 like that. so actually all of them are quite young.

so the thing happened like this actually.. at first when i got home i wasnt sure what happened then mom told me they had a fight this afternoon. at work. the 30+ years old one, lets call him A, (dontknow his name) fought with the youngest one. so at first, the 1st version was.. A came and swept all B(the young one) 's food to the floor and start beating him up. at least thats what my dad's malay worker told him.

then i actually thoguht A was wrong. he came up to my place when i was eating and asked my my dad not to fire him. yea, my dad was gonna fire him, cuz he couldnt get along with the other three. although he was actually the most hardworking one. i saw his red eyes, my dad asked him to pack and go home. i pitied him of course. he was the only one with the family, the most hard working one, and had to PACK?

then my bro came back, i asked him to go down and asked what really happened. so he went. he asked the young one but he said no no no. meaning nothing happened. then he went inside to ask A and A demonstrated. so, the story really went like.. B didnt close the pipe, letting the water flow, so A asked him to close the pipe. but you know what B did? B talked like wanted to fight him and start closing in on him, then punched A, so supposely, B was the one who's wrong.

and yea.. thats why A kept on saying nothing happened? then A's friend said in english 'you, fighting, no good'. so at last the agent came and didnt bring anyone with him, instead he asked them to be friends and so the translator will be coming tonight to check out whats wrong.. and what the hell.. my dad has to pay him 100 for that? LOL what kind of world are we in? acn anybody let me know?

HAHAHHA. anyway.. to be continued. tune in tomorrow to know what happened next. btw, silly me, almost cried for the worker when he came up begging my dad. sigh. i've not much merit actually.. other than having too much compassion. LOL and too much tears, no wonder people often say girls are made up of water. i totally agree!