Just yesterday, before i went to bed, i accidentally pressed a few buttons (which is apparently shortcuts(if you're using a nokia, you'll know)) which led me to my notepad which has been neglected for a few months.
I saw two notes there and i pressed open and started to read my own entry.
it went like this : (another one of my complaints dated 21.12.2007)
一天过一天，我发现我对你.. 越来越失望。你常说我爱无理取闹、胡思乱想，我想.. 是你忘了，我也是一个需要爱的平凡女生，如果你爱得够深，我就不会对你有丝毫的怀疑、更不会感到无助。记得你曾说过，‘不要相信任何人’。任何人... 包括你吗? 你常对我撒谎，但你为什么还说我一定要相信你? 你又有什么资格做出这样自私的要求? 我真的爱你爱得很累，很痛.. 不过我还是傻傻的认为，这一定只是考验。事实却非如此，我错了... 凡事讲求先来后到。我来迟，所以我必须让步吗? 我不甘心。 照理说，付出的，和收回的，理当一样多的，可是为什么我的付出换来的是心碎?
I laughed when i finish reading this. This happened when someone was back last year and he went out to meet that someone and guess what.. it was passed on to me, the news. LOL stupid stupid you. It no longer affected me, this note, the feeling that i had..
all i was thinking was... what the shit was i thinking back then? its been half a year and i've grown so much more, the naive girl that i was, was now in the past.
Sometimes i think, maybe i didnt really throw her outta me, she's still here, inside me, that naive & bloody immature me. But being her, sometimes, cheer me up. :)
the second note : (dated 28.11.2007)(older than the last one)
i think................................... i'm not going to disclose this one. HAHAHA.
so damn annoying la!
anyways, yesterday was a little gathering for ern. To be exact, we were suppose to throw a little party at chloe's. But we ended up meeting in the mall (which i dont really know why) and also, two different batch were called.
I can see that some arent at all happy about this arrangement and i dontknow whose idea is that though, but its kinda stupid. MY side, no one was at all happy. the OTHER side, i dontknow.
i dontknow, maybe we just dont mixwell. :) should've brought i blender to blend everyone into one. But too bad, the night ended really early, chloe went home first around 9. wendy went home at 9++, (which she told me she will be staying my place that day.) but i dontknow what happened to her lo, she left with a super duper obvious grumpy expression. (i think i know why)
and then me and the choo, went to makan. The others, kungfu panda. (i've watched and didnt wanna watch again, cuz i have to wake up for work today)
and then wendy said she might watch with the others, but turns out to be that... she didnt watch also. -____-"
But well, wth. i just wanna say that, the night turned out suckily. i wanna complain! im QUEEN OF COMPLAINTS.
so stuffed with work i forgot what i wanted to complain about.
AHHHH~ forget about it.
lalala. im eating chocolate with singapore lion. LOL post the pic up nexttime.
STAY TUNED~
