I miss her , she sounds tired , it makes me wanna cry .
I think I've been crying too much and I'm gonna go blind if it continues , haha . Just saying .
ah well , I think it's me being overly emotional , that's me for you .
DEAL WITH IT . ( I'm starting to like this word , though it actually sounds a little annoying . )
I'm suppose to be studying , which I am , err . I mean WILL do , soon , when I finish blogging .
I won't be online as often , it seems . Cos I need to focus .
Even if it means breaking my neck studying . :)
Doesn't sound like me tralala I know , heck .
I couldn't help having my hand wander off ~ touching this , and that , walking here and there .
DAYDREAM .
Then it suddenly got to me .
- I don't know if I'll be able to continue doing Degree , I know they say I can , but what if I don't pass ? What if .. I wasn't able to continue ? I don't wanna stop , not here , not now . I know I can go further than this . But what if things just don't go as planned ?
I may be thinking a tad too much , but it's a ' just-in-case ' sort of thing .
Am I going to just work ? Just stop ?
But what I'm studying offers alot of routes , right ? I think ?
Let's seeeeee ..
I can't go doing SCIENCE , that's for sure , gawdd I almost flunked that .
Maybe Business ? But I don't .. like this option .
Ermm , I have an advantage cos I get exemptions from doing diploma and I can just jump into degree , oh I love Alevels - PLEASE PASS !
H & T ? NONONO . alot of lengs though , drools for awhile *
MassComm ? Not my thing .
I have my heart fixed , but now I'm just so unsure .
EESSHH HATE THIS .
Heart , please stop jumping around and let me catch you ,
stop giving me all the mood swings blabla yadayada whatever .
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So , I was reading through my old texts , for no particular reason if you are to ask .
Just browsing . :)
I remember how you used to push me away , even thinking of it now still hurts me .
Luckily everything turned out fine in the end .
If not ? I don't know too , another emotional breakdown ? HAHAHA neh , not so weak .
anyways , till here .
catch me again soon .
xoxo
JennyB
